Hey loves! I have had this post sitting in my drafts for 2 months actually and the time has FINALLY come to share some personal things, and some super exciting things! Here we go..
Part 1. Not in a good place..
Flashback to July of last year. Between working 2 jobs I was crazy for babysitting for 13 families, dog/ house sitting, mini road trips, trying to have a social life, some what of a love life, 😂 and of course being consistent with the blog and social channels as well, I WAS DOING THE MOST. Honestly I loved being busy but it was getting to me! I finally realized this when I wasn't happy and didn't want to blog or care to post anything to my Instagram, and y'all know how much I love Instagram y'all! So I decided to take a week break and it turned into a week and 2 day break. I really needed this to regain my love for my blog and Instagram. I was better but still not my at my best. I know I don't ever really talk about my love life but lets fast forward to October. I was talking to this guy for a few months who actually kept my interest which was very rare. We had spent the day together and I found out that he was moving out of Arizona at the end of the month and I was devastated. Like how could you go and move on me when things are going good between us? #imselfish Even though we only talked for 5 months, I really liked him a lot and certain feelings definitely were developing so when he officially left, I was depressed for a few weeks and I started emotionally eating. I gained weight, and just didn't care for anything any more. Now only a few people knew how I was really feeling. I hid how I felt on social media, I didn't want anyone to see this side of me so I was my usual happy and bubbly self. I was ashamed of who I became at this time.
Part 2. - Speaking things out into existence...
After my I went through that for a few weeks, one night I laid in my bed and declared that in 2018 I'd look for a new job, I'd rather catch flights than feelings. I wanted to make sure I would at least take one Friday off a month so I could have it to myself or dedicate it to my blog. That I would do anything and everything to live my best life. A few weeks later, my mother and I were talking to some family friends and found out that they were looking for a live in nanny who would only work Monday- Thursday and occasionally travel with them domestically and internationally. I casually looked at my mother and raised my eyebrows. This nanny position is pretty much everything I'm looking for in a new job for 2018 I stated to my mom in the car ride home. "You should talk to them about it." I contemplated. This would be such an amazing opportunity but I can't leave home, my family, my friends, ALL my connections I worked so hard to achieve over the past few years! Within a couple of days of learning about this position, all of a sudden so many photographers and bloggers started following me on Instagram. The catch is they were all from the same surrounding areas in the east coast. I thought to myself this is so weird!! Within the week our family friends approached me about employing me to fill their nanny position starting in June 2018. Now I've always agreed with speaking things out into existence and you will get what you put out into the world, but even more so now! The FACT that I spoke what I wanted for myself for the next year and to basically receive what I spoke out a few weeks later is crazy to me! I know that I will be speaking things into existence more often! You should try it too!
Part 3. New Opportunities...
Trying new things has always scared me. What if I'm no good at it, I'm sure there's someone better than me. I don't think I can do it now, maybe I'll try in a year. etc. Stop all that nonsense friends!! I stumbled upon this quote randomly and it for sure confirmed my decision for this position.
"It's a terrible thing, I think, in life to wait until you're ready. I have this feeling that now that actually no one is ever ready to do anything. Theres almost no such thing as ready. There is only now. And you may as well do it now. Generally speaking now is as good a time as any." #sogood Why was letting my fears hold me back when I can embark on a brand new adventure, in a brand new state? So if you haven't already guessed it, I'm moving! Silver Spring, Maryland to be exact. I have had so many emotions going through my head for the past 6 months! I am SOOOO excited but at the same time I am a little bit nervous, but I got a gift of a compass necklace from one of my children (used to be a preschool teacher) and it says So many places, so many possibilities, you have the power to determine your direction. Wear the necklace as a reminder that you're headed for adventure, success and incredible experiences along the way! What a great reminder to have when I'm having doubts being in this new city of mine that I get to call home! June 3rd, you can't come any sooner baby!!!
I will be sharing all of my new adventures in video form on this new Instagram called DMV & Josie
If you happen to live this area lets meet up! I only know about 5 people, message me here or slide in my DM's on my Instagram 🤗 I hope you guys have an amazing Friday!
Pictures by Jacquline